So i've thought about this a lot, perhaps more then I would like, because I have a tendency to worry and they tell me worrying isn't healthy. But I've come to the conclusion that, well, I'm standing on the wall between Fine Art and Fashion/Textiles. To be more precise my body's leaning markedly towards Fine Art but with one leg still stuck in Fashion/Textiles. The reason for this indecisive leg is that I just can't help thinking that a career in the realm of Fashion and Textiles would be fascinating and rewarding (in more ways than one), and I would like to think that I have a certain flair for accessory design (but you must tell me if I'm being delusional here).I recall my interview for University of the Arts London where they advised me to choose Chelsea and Textiles, but, and this is where the rest of my body hangs, i do love the idea of Fine Art. I like the freedom of never having to choose one medium to focus on, and of not being in an over-structured environment (put that down to my authority issues etc). I also found that during the rotations I was deeply missing the smell of oil paint, the dry red hands i would have after throwing in Ceramics and the excitement of seeing your little plastic reel of film turn into pictures in the developer (which smells like sulfur by the way; so I suppose smells are very important to me). These are things that I wouldn't be able to do in Textiles, and that worries me.
I do find solace in the fact that I may not have to select the same BA as the subject I choose to focus on for the next few months in Foundation year, but nevertheless I really want to pick wisely. Before the Area Talks I was more than sure of what I was going to pick, and although I enjoyed the Fashion/Textiles rotation the most out the all the rotations (even Fine Art) I was still convinced that Fine Art was for me and that I couldn't imagine life without it. But oh those Area Talks! They may have clarified that I absolutely didn't want to do 3 Dimensional Spatial Design or Visual Communications, but unfortunately the same cannot be said of Fashion/Textiles. Instead of clarifying my preference for Fine Art they caused the practical part of my brain to spin into action and I began to think about careers, not just making Art. While the Fine Art talk confirmed all my beliefs about the subject, it didn't help resolve my dilemma. In my Arts High School in Los Angeles I was lucky enough to do all the major subjects (Fashion, Textiles, Painting, Ceramics, Black and White Photography, Printmaking, etc, etc.) and as a result i have a good idea about all of them; so I can't help feeling a little feeble for not being able to be more steadfast in my choice. So I'm really hoping that you can help me make the decision. Conceivably of course we could always flip a coin and see if I feel uneasy with the side it lands on? All I can safely say is that I would not like to take a course in Paper sculpting, I think I may have done enough of that for the rest of my life!
